Today i have no pictures to put with this blog.
Today i have nothing to do after i switch the computer off.
Today i have no feelings to put to sleep when the lights go out.
some one told me today that the lights were a celebration that i was. and i sat in the glory of those lights for as long as my drooping eyes allowed me.i felt so lonely. i wondered why i had fought tooth and nail for people who didn't feel the same way and why was i scared of bad karma?
well...there are bad people aren't there...and nothing bad happens to them...then why me?
no...indeed nothing has happened to me yet.
the last time i had checked i was sitting on the steps of the school of languages staring up at the graffiti on the towering walls hoping that he would stop and sit with me. but he left.
isn't that obvious?
the planes flew low over head and the puppies tripped over their own clumsy feet while trying to follow the mother around.
i want to go home.
not home...but i want to go away from here. all this confusion and faltering self esteem. i want to sleep without having to worry about waking up. i want to sit down and eat with people i know. for once i don't want to feel so badly lost.
i want to cry and not alone.
crushes should not happen to people over the age of 21...its illegal and pathetic.
All my life I've been waiting
For you to bring a fairytale my way
Been living in a fantasy without meaning
It's not okay, I don't feel safe
I don't feel safe...
Left broken empty in despair
Want to breathe, can't find air
Thought you were sent from up above
But you and me never had love
So much more I have to say
Help me find a way
And I wonder if you know
How it really feels
To be left outside alone
When it's cold out here
Well maybe you should know
Just how it feels
To be left outside alone
To be left outside alone...
